Folding the days without getting creases
This seemed like a good place to throw any musings that came to mind
Life's Long Roads Can Be Hard On Shoes
There is nothing like a significant event to throw water on a face waiting to awaken in a new direction. The loss of a dear friend, a new book, and time alone listening to the changes within myself while the world about me continues to make its own adjustments at a time when the only constant is our breath. I am left with little doubt that we are now entering a critical time in our development.
The energies surrounding the upcoming American election and those that have already passed in other countries are indicators of the pendulum swinging widely as the masses try to counterbalance how they respond to the sense of a world on the move. We pick parties that represent our availability to move forward, or we choose to support those that represent the past and the familiarity that we believe will keep us safe.
A challenging prospect as the divisions grow ever more expansive as we outgrow the very system that we are obliged to sustain is now becoming the yardstick of our division. The system itself, like much in the educational curriculum, focuses not on where we might be going but where we have already been.
As we evolve, so should our forms of governance, especially in creating a structure that inhibits the ability of one person to control the many. Ultimate power, as history would attest, can often prove disastrous for the fragility of human consciousness, and runaway trains are frequently created as a result. But better, the pain I know usually continues to feed the system.
For centuries, we have believed there are leaders and followers because our insecurities have allowed us to become disconnected from the sense that we are all cut from the same cloth and all have the ability in some way to demonstrate our unique contribution.
The disconnection we have grown to feel from ourselves exploited by the controllers has created lives of unempowered, in survival mode instead of being able to feel the collective and focus on what we can create rather than building illusionary stockades to keep us safe.
There is little value in becoming disgruntled about the process, as that just highlights our own sense of inadequacy, but by embarking on a journey where we can heighten our awareness of others and incorporating that into our programming, we start to realize that every adjustment we are willing to make within ourselves radiates out into the matrix shaping our journey forward.
Everyone is playing out their own story here, and we are not privy to the wider aspect of their purpose, so judgment can be a tricky path to navigate when we are often the ones left with the weight it employs. Each new beginning requires the surrender of the old to be fully present with what it offers, as we are all evolving at different levels and speeds. No matter what route we take, we eventually come to ourselves to vanquish the battles that have raged within.
Each generation adopts its collective viewpoint through the programming of the time and can become bound by it if we get too lost in looking back, which ultimately will shorten our journey as we are telling the system there is little value in being in the present instead of embracing the flow that prepares us for each new opportunity.
It is tempting to get lost in the effect, not the cause, as the world appears to be descending into chaos. Keeping our energy focused on what could be rather than what we see currently is important as it helps set the stage for what we are drawing in rather than on the transformation process itself. As individuals, we look back on our lives and have seen the same process at work. The chaos we create, the mechanisms of surrender, the cleansing, and the transformation.
Remarkable things are occurring alongside the darker aspects, working their way from this reality. Technological innovations, initiatives to reforest and clean up the planet, the demystification of mental health issues, the ability to access knowledge, the move toward community, the unfolding of the true history of the human journey, and the gradual acceptance of a more expansively populated universe. The list goes on, and there is so much more to come as we wrestle ourselves from underneath the shadow of the controllers to perceive more of what our true journey was.
We are connected, and the only difference is in the way we have programmed our minds. The old system would have us remain separate as we are more easily controlled, something easier to perceive as we throw off the old normals. Our growth shifts our relationship to time, and as we expand, we get to see more of what is really there and more of what we are capable of becoming. Drawing into manifestation the kind of world we are ready to perceive with the power of who we are becoming.
As we become more aligned with a world drawing closer, the darkness recedes, and those not in alignment follow, so our divisions grow less while harmony increases, assisting those who need a hand as our self-imposed limitations continue to fall away with the expanding energies revealing more of who we really are.
The less we need to be controlled, the more we can govern the self and attract only that which is in alignment. Those who will vote out of fear will create only more fear and isolation and will ever be at odds with a world that is ready to move on.
The birthing process is always uncomfortable as new life requires a cleansing of the old, and this immediate period of discord assists us in letting go as we decide whether we wish to be shaken from the tree or descend of our own accord. The more sandbags we jettison, the higher the balloon will fly and the more available we become to call upon the assistance waiting in the wings. We see more ships because they allow it, we also observe more because we are allowing it.
It's a daunting time as we enter a period of diminished definition, as it is no longer required to the extent it once was, and our compass is our ability to simply accept at this time of upheaval and subsequent transformation. A daunting but exciting time as possibility envelops us, and the beauty that all who dwell here have in abundance will finally begin to shine.
The Turning Of A Page
The Parting Of Ways
We live in a time when energies continue to feel as if they are ever increasing, luring us away from the illusions of linear time, leaving us to wonder why the days appear like a child’s fascination to catching butterflies elusive of the net. We have been informed that transformation is under way, and the effects of it are casting impressions upon our normal while allowing us to feel the pressure of our resistance to change.
Few would disagree that we are sorely in need of it, but the force behind the word ‘evolvement’ for many can seem more than a little daunting, for it suggests the standing down of the guards we have placed about our normal we have worked so hard to construct in order to give form to our vulnerabilities; our craving for definition to cover the manholes that put a lid over the unknown even if it may have drawn to us those that dilute energies of our own.
We crave more expansive horizons as it’s in our nature to do so while at the same time holding back to preserve those self-protective mechanisms, bringing about a juxtaposition that can often cause currents to clash and storms to brew amongst the reflective principle of the reality we are creating. We don’t let go easily even though we are beginning to understand such a position is a red flag to the bull of surrender.
But assistance is everywhere in the form of bright-eyed children who display wisdom beyond their years and the undeniable lightness now emanating from others who are moving beyond the gravitational pull of their own resistances. This invitation to advance is appearing everywhere as the veils between what was once ca mystery begin to fall,in to fall revealing the commonality between us all. What I am willing to donate of myself towards change will be a gift to the whole, enabling the collective light to increase its ability to penetrate the shadows in which those subdued by doubt reside.
Of course, the path forward can be rocky to test our determination and to become aware of the limitations we have placed upon ourselves that this energetic poultice draws to the surface for our acknowledgment; those fears that have worked their way inward over time like a shard of glass digging ever deeper, ultimately beginning to fester in order we recognize the disharmony before it influences the reality we are creating.
Of course, we can resist all of this, and many do, feeling that normal is the only flotsam in which to cling in an ocean that feels vast and devoid of definition. We can create even greater illusions to mask our traumas and seek control from others and their ideals, or aspire to control others in turn and inflate justifications for doing so. Over time, such perspectives gain density while our ability to feel the world about us begins to diminish, and our world starts to shrink, causing us to endorse more vigorously the stance we have chosen and the mechanisms for doing so.
It's little wonder that once women fainted because of the emotional overload, a result of the society that limited their ability to express themselves. History has shown us what destruction can be brought about by traumas that have expanded to emotional tumors. Lives are shortened as the system interprets denial as an expression of the will to live. Reasons to integrate into life about us lessen while the construction of normal intensifies as our fears contribute to its density. The rationale is consistently found to keep us within the walls of the castle we have constructed that slowly begins to drift like an iceberg away fromthose around us who struggle to sense our presence the more our energies are contained.
Without the natural flow of forces, irrationality becomes our modality as we struggle to feel our natural senses that have been subdued by our withdrawal into the ever-diminishing reality we have created. The longer the spider gets to weave such a web, the harder it is to detach ourselves from it; even when those who wish us well extend a hand, we can no longer hear the voices that try to guide us back to the present.
We live in a world of impermanence, and it’s our observations of ourselves that allow us to expand, and we cannot remain static. We embrace possibility, or we shrink from it and move back into the past to what was familiar to us. We let go, and we float, allowing the current to take us toward that which we have yet to perceive, as change would not be so if we knew its composition. Fear causes us to gain density and we sink until that time when we are ready to continue on the path of opportunity that this short human experience offers us. We can lie on the grass to enjoy a sky filled with wonder or imagine we are looking down and are about to fall into the void. There is always a choice in how we perceive.
If life really is just a pile of lego for us to construct in any form we choose to quantify our relationship to matter and divinity, then there seems little merit in shrinking from the process to consider that life is simply survival; survival for what? We all exit in a short period of time anyway the same way as we entered, carrying only what we have seen ourselves to be. So, holding back only encourages us to continue where we left off at another time, but as this is not a race, then it’s only a matter of preference. Standing on the side of the pool where all our friends are happily swimming, it’s only a matter of time before we decide to jump in and join them.
It's my belief that we are on the cusp of heralding in a new dawn of the human journey; how that reality is constructed, of course, is somewhat down to what we are willing to gift to it by who we allow ourselves to become today. How hard we propel a rock into a small pond dictates the size of the ripples that will, in time, reach the other shore. The violence and the chaos we see about us presently is distressing for us all, but so is the fire that sweeps through the forest, consuming everything in its path, until the day arrives when we witness the new growth replacing the old and a forest healthier and more balanced than ever before.
living Within The Undefined
Space is often seen as the final frontier. To me, living in the undefinable space within and around us and being able to accept and embrace that state of neutrality is the ultimate destination. Why? Because I believe that every sentient being occupying a third dimensional reality, no matter where and in no matter what form, is aspiring to that state, ultimately. The rest is window dressing.
That state of neutrality, non-attachment, is what allows us to connect with the universe at large, and, of course, our very natures, but it can be a long and challenging journey to get there because we are up against all that we have commissioned the mind to construct with the programs we believed would keep us safe.
We are all unsure deep down of the space we actually occupy as we know on some level it is temporary, not our real home or state of being, and as most find the unknown to contain too many variables we commission the mind to construct what we in time term normal — our view of reality and the place we choose to see ourselves existing within it. We then charge the mind to keep the illusion safe and to go to great lengths if necessary to secure our perspective of it. Better the defined illusion than the fear of what we don’t know.
As we go through life we begin to realize that it takes more work to swim against the stream than to allow ourselves to flow with it, but of course the longer we have been supporting our illusion the harder it is to change the program. It's usually fear that installs programs and it often takes something quite strong to help us remove them, and every autobiography will certainly illustrate that point.
There are moments when we can find ourselves through various circumstances paying visits to the detached state that I am referring to but the thought of reality being an illusion constructed solely for the purpose of self definition is usually a concept unnerving enough to see us hightailing it back to our own particular constructions. We would all like to feel that we are living undefined choice-orientated realities but mostly we are like snails residing in a shell built from our own particular normal.
It’s that conditioned expectation of the world fitting into our normal that makes change a hard pill to swallow and that is why sometimes the bowling balls that tend to head our way periodically can be quite large as we don’t let go very easily. That is why there is so much upheaval in our world at present, as we radiate what we are. So much uncertainty, as that is the mechanism by which change is most easily initiated. We are all designed to rise energetically but our resistance is what keeps us at the lower vibrational spectrum and the world at present is attempting to pry us loose like barnacles so we can evolve into the next version of ourselves and when the world about us struggles for definition, that is the time when we become more pliable.
Letting go has been a buzz word for a long time, but letting go into what you might ask? Think of it this way for a moment. We are here on this Earth, on this plane of existence, for a short time presently, 70, 80 Christmases maybe, not long, but most have a sense that there is something more than this. More than just our ability to survive but while we live mostly in the mind the nature of our journey remains often just out of reach.
If we came from something more than this and we leave to go to something greater than this then it would seem logical that part of us on some level would know about the purpose of our journey. Accessing that information is not easy especially as we live in a world where our purpose is veiled. Harder still when we live in the mind and reside in our states of normal.
Observing the normals we have created already begins to weaken our attachment to them and the cracks that appear can be widened by our desire to expand beyond their influence. Attachments are only ever built from the foundations of not enough. The more weights we are willing to let go of the higher the balloon will begin to rise and the greater the view over the landscapes we have helped to shape.
Dispelling the illusions brings us closer to being able to reside for longer periods in the not knowing, the place where trust becomes our compass and acceptance our guide as the only requirement for form is because it is showing us something. There is never nothing going on or happening around us. As we rise we observe mystery falling away as our sense of connection to everything increases. We become the astronauts tethered to Earth but have an overview where separation is much harder to subscribe to.
We understand compassionate detachment where we can allow others to feel our presence but we are also able to perceive what created the drama of the moment so we ourselves do not get lost within it. To live fully in the undefined, that state of true neutrality where our senses and perspectives are no longer colored by our sense of not enough, therefore there is less requirement to continue to attract examples of that.
We move from survival mode to a co-creative one and beyond our sense of separation, no longer resisting the flow but accepting we are part of it, observing everything but holding on to nothing. It means that each moment is encased in possibility where judgement has no place.
Coming home to ourselves shines an ever brighter light on the shadow dwellers, causing them to rise up in defense of their fears, but we know once they expose themselves for who they have chosen to be, change has already been summoned, never fast enough but always at the right moment. The lighter we become the less attached we are to density and the more we gift the whole.
We naturally aspire for change, mostly, but we are having to deal with the very programs that we helped install that slow that process down. We read the book, take the course and go to the lecture and often find some reason why we cannot commit to the process. Something is pulling us towards the next book, the next course, because we forget that the mind has been commissioned like security guards to protect the normal we have created. Subscribing fully to something that might change our lives completely is seen by the mind as a threat and movement towards change is often subtly averted.
Like a computer (which the mind is) retains programs until they are removed, we often call large events into our lives to help us do just that, remove those blockers, and that comes about when we are forced to surrender by one mechanism or another, and then life begins again in a more expanded way. Again, reference autobiographies, movies and books, they mostly carry that theme within them somewhere.
Life frowns upon complacency as underneath there is always a desire to be more than we have seen ourselves to be and a bowling ball ends up coming our way which we call in as part of us wants to expand no matter how many patches we try to put on our normal. The more we expand, the greater the ability to see that reality has no fixed form and we do have the strength to exist within that knowing, as that state actually is our natural habitat in the realms that we will return to soon enough.
How many times have we had a powerful experience away somewhere and returned to what was familiar, only to perceive aspects of it that we have never noticed or seen before? How often have we looked into the past only to realize that we are now seeing the same thing in a different way? When we evolve we don’t necessarily see new things but we do see more of what is already there, which is new. The stage remains the same, it's only the costumes that continue to change.
The people looking at the same painting in the gallery — do they all see it exactly the same way or are there variances? Is there one ultimate perspective for that painting? Perhaps not, and if that is the case then it’s one more example that what we call reality may be more pliable than we were led to believe.
That song that just came on at just the right time when we needed to hear it; the person we run into by accident turns out to be no accident at all. There are endless examples but, like déjà vu’s, we tend not to dwell on the experience with the help of our programs lest it makes us feel somewhat untethered. Perhaps reality is merely a reflective medium in which we gain opportunities to perceive and manifest whatever is part of our growth.
As mentioned, it can be unnerving to send postcards from the edge, to feel unconnected from the previous states of normal that we have created, and be all right with that to a point where we can learn new ways where we become detached while increasing our ability to be present.
There are many who have the ability to question the reality they have created but get lost in the questioning itself, the desire for quantification which the brain is not able to offer, and then instead of letting it all go we can get caught up in the loop of wanting the mind to indicate where we are, to give measure of our process — the kind of questioning the mind interprets as a problem which sends it searching through the filing cabinets for an answer it cannot find, which causes us to question more, and then that looping becomes after a time the new normal and not a comfortable one.
The journey of finding comfort in the not knowing takes us away from seeking and into acceptance; a gradual journey of peeling back the layers as we reveal more of what we have constructed to keep us feeling like we might fall into the void. As we get more accustomed to the undefined the mind gets more used to the idea and puts fewer demands on requiring definition until that time comes when there is increasing acceptance of non-attachment.
When we cross the desert of our own self doubt, what lies on the other side is the opportunity to create ever expanding normals until we no longer require a state of normal at all. We just are. The brain is integral to our journey here but it is not who we are, it's just part of the mechanism to assist our short residency by running a complex system.
The energies that descend upon our world presently may seem to be endorsing the chaos that appears global, but it's a force that is centrifugal, assisting in bringing the inside out; order to the chaos which makes it harder to create new normals in which to hide and so we are encouraged to let go, accept and be, and make ourselves more available to evolve into the next version of ourselves. We are all, at our own pace, moving towards the undefined, that final frontier.
An Affirmation Within Time
